EJA wrote:DieselSandwich: Not clingy like...idk. As in, when we used to be close he'd hug me and then I'd tell him to get off of me and in response he refused to let go. Or the family would be watching a movie and he'd get all close and snuggly and if I pushed him away he would only cling tighter. That was years ago, of course =p I've tried to reverse it, to force myself to not be affected by it, but it really doesn't work at all.
EJA wrote:I looked up something like this --> delusional disorder. It pretty much pertains to this except for that this isn't "unlikely" or "unbelievable", it's true and very obviously so. But how I react to the situation...it's not like I'm choosing this. I'm trying not to. And I can't have a mental disorder, because this isn't my fault, it's his. If he would just die or go away forever, and if we get rid of his stuff - like the chair he sits in to eat, his computer, and his clothing, and we'd have to replace the bed he sleeps in, stuff like that, then that would be okay because I'd never have to think about him again.
EDIT: Went to library, checked out two books on mental illnesses, bookmarked all the parts that looked important. I also went to this website:
http://my.clevelandclinic.org/disorders ... order.aspx
It's so hard reading them - they keep referring to situations where the patients believed stuff similar to mine, but they kept calling what the people believed "delusions" and "bizarre and obviously false to most people" and stuff like that....but mine's right. I mean, it's not obviously false - it's obviously true. Anyone could see it if they'd just look. He follows me. He makes me talk to him. He makes me look at him. He keeps trying to touch me, ew, whatever, I don't know...but these books aren't even considering that what the people believe might be RIGHT - because in my case, it is, and now I don't know what to do about it.
One sentence hit me very hard: "The most common form of delusion is a persecutory delusion, the belief that others are trying to harm you. You may focus on a family member,...you may believe that people are harassing you for a specific purpose:...." etc, it goes on from there.
What this book is describing, overall, is EXACTLY like my situation - except for mine's not a delusion at all. It's real, and don't tell me I'm just saying that because it actually is a delusion: It's not.
Obviously no one is going to believe me if I tell them, or they'll try to "cure" me when all I really need is for my father to go away and all his stuff to be burned or gotten rid of or something :\
What do I do about this?
Saeihr wrote:Obvious to who? Obviously your parents aren't seeing it the way you do, otherwise they'd be more inclined to listen. The question I'd be wondering were I in your position, is how does someone experiencing a delusion know that it is a delusion?
AlexTheSane wrote:No offence, but you do come off as a bit paraniod. Obviously I don't know the exact situation because all I know is what you've described to me; I haven't observed it myself. But your reaction of "get rid of him and burn his stuff" seems quite extreme.
Saeihr wrote:In Australia there is a telephone mental health help line called 'Lifeline'. Essentially counselors over the phone. Maybe there's an equivalent in your area EJA?
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