Lesbian Friend

[Beyond_BB_Birthday]

So I'm an FTM and I've been out to my friend for almost a year. I'm pre-T, pre-op by the way. So I really liked her a while ago, but she told me she was a lesbian and that, as much as she though I was a great person, wasn't romantically interested in me. I still kind of have feelings for her. She's always been really touchy-feely, even just with friends, so when she was cuddling up to me at this party last night (no alcohol though) I didn't really think much of it, but when we were alone we just started to make out. I feel kind of used; she was probably just horny and wanted someone to make out with, but I also wonder if she really is interested in me, and if so, does she still see me as female? I'm really not sure which is worse

I don't know why I'm posting this, I just wanted to rant. None of my friends would understand.

[Alder]

I can't offer much advice other than asking her directly what the intent was.. I can sympathize and empathize however, being fta/m but identifying as gay.... I've had some troubles with male friends along the same degree.