I've Lost It

[WriggleMunch]

I believe that most of the FTMs here would have no issue with my situation, but it scares me to death.

I've lost my period. Just. Up and lost it.
I'm sexually active with my MTF partner (pre-op) so Ive taken a handful of pregnancy tests. All turned out negative. So I don't have a parasite. But I've lost my period and it scares me. As much as I hated the mess and the whole "this is what girl's do" thing, it's terrifying to not have it. I constantly am afraid that I'm pregnant.
It started in Feb, when I got my period early. I had sex with my partner for Valentines Day. It was my first time and I was scared so I went and got PlanB just in case.
It said it could delay your period. And I hated it because it made me want to be a woman again. Made me think that I wanted to have children with my disgustingly broken body. I spotted a little. I went over a month without one and when it finally arrived it was less than three days and lighter than anything. That was maybe late March/early April.
I've since gotten on the DEPO shot. Which they tell me will also stop my period. But I'm supposed to spot. And it's not supposed to be gone right away. But it's not there. The thing that made me feel SAFESAFESAFE from pregnancy is gone and I'm scared.

I'm disgusted that I want it back. It was a hassle. An embarrassment. I couldn't wear boxers. I walked around in shame. Men don't menstruate, I'm becoming more male. I like it. But I don't.

I don't know what to do. How to medically or psychologically handle this.
I feel like I should just order pregnancy tests in bulk now. My partner doesn't really know how scared I am.
She insists on not wearing condoms now. Says she doesn't need to.
The panic is overwhelming.
They say stress delays it.
I just want it to come back. Some semblance of normal.

[Postmodern Macro]

Plan B can fuck up your hormones. Depending on when you got your Depo shot, your body might not've had a chance to reset itself, so no spotting might be normal.
And remember that all bodies are different.

[confuzzled1982]

I believe that most of the FTMs here would have no issue with my situation, but it scares me to death.

I've lost my period. Just. Up and lost it.
I'm sexually active with my MTF partner (pre-op) so Ive taken a handful of pregnancy tests. All turned out negative. So I don't have a parasite. But I've lost my period and it scares me. As much as I hated the mess and the whole "this is what girl's do" thing, it's terrifying to not have it. I constantly am afraid that I'm pregnant.
It started in Feb, when I got my period early. I had sex with my partner for Valentines Day. It was my first time and I was scared so I went and got PlanB just in case.
It said it could delay your period. And I hated it because it made me want to be a woman again. Made me think that I wanted to have children with my disgustingly broken body. I spotted a little. I went over a month without one and when it finally arrived it was less than three days and lighter than anything. That was maybe late March/early April.
I've since gotten on the DEPO shot. Which they tell me will also stop my period. But I'm supposed to spot. And it's not supposed to be gone right away. But it's not there. The thing that made me feel SAFESAFESAFE from pregnancy is gone and I'm scared.

I'm disgusted that I want it back. It was a hassle. An embarrassment. I couldn't wear boxers. I walked around in shame. Men don't menstruate, I'm becoming more male. I like it. But I don't.

I don't know what to do. How to medically or psychologically handle this.
I feel like I should just order pregnancy tests in bulk now. My partner doesn't really know how scared I am.
She insists on not wearing condoms now. Says she doesn't need to.
The panic is overwhelming.
They say stress delays it.
I just want it to come back. Some semblance of normal.

Perhaps the Plan B gave your DEPO shot a jumpstart. Did they specifically say you are supposed to spot, or that spotting is normal. If they said it is normal, that just means it can happen, and is nothing to worry about, even it may happen with more people than it doesn't happen with.

[WriggleMunch]

Perhaps the Plan B gave your DEPO shot a jumpstart. Did they specifically say you are supposed to spot, or that spotting is normal. If they said it is normal, that just means it can happen, and is nothing to worry about, even it may happen with more people than it doesn't happen with.

Both said that spotting "may occur".
After about 6 weeks of nothing I finally got it. And now I feel sucktastic again.

Thanks for the hand-holding guys.

[confuzzled1982]

Perhaps the Plan B gave your DEPO shot a jumpstart. Did they specifically say you are supposed to spot, or that spotting is normal. If they said it is normal, that just means it can happen, and is nothing to worry about, even it may happen with more people than it doesn't happen with.

Both said that spotting "may occur".
After about 6 weeks of nothing I finally got it. And now I feel sucktastic again.

Thanks for the hand-holding guys.

"May occur" is medical talk for something that might or might not happen, and is nothing to worry about either way. Usually it's a benign side effect that was reported often enough in clinical trials to specifically mention.

[Postmodern Macro]

Perhaps the Plan B gave your DEPO shot a jumpstart. Did they specifically say you are supposed to spot, or that spotting is normal. If they said it is normal, that just means it can happen, and is nothing to worry about, even it may happen with more people than it doesn't happen with.

Both said that spotting "may occur".
After about 6 weeks of nothing I finally got it. And now I feel sucktastic again.

Thanks for the hand-holding guys.

"May occur" is medical talk for something that might or might not happen, and is nothing to worry about either way. Usually it's a benign side effect that was reported often enough in clinical trials to specifically mention.

Exactly. It might happen. Might not. That's just the medical community covering their asses.

[itsa_wallaby]

If you're that uncomfortable, tell your partner to wear a condom anyway. She says she "doesn't need to" - well if it makes you that upset, then yes, she needs to.

[Psychopomp]

Not to sound harsh or anything but if she continues to say no to condoms, you may need to take a step back and reconsider your situation with her.

[WriggleMunch]

Not to sound harsh or anything but if she continues to say no to condoms, you may need to take a step back and reconsider your situation with her.

If you're that uncomfortable, tell your partner to wear a condom anyway. She says she "doesn't need to" - well if it makes you that upset, then yes, she needs to.

Talked to her about it. I can tell that she thinks I'm being silly, but she agreed to continue using them (not in a begrudging way though).
I agree with her that I don't like them. Without them sex is much more intimate, but yeah... Freaks me out sometimes.

I got my period a few days ago. It was one of the worst ones ever. Really bad.
Called PP, they said it was normal.

[Dave]

A period is not predictable. I never understood people who asked about when my period normally would occur, like in the doctor's office or something. It...doesn't. Well, it didn't for YEARS and I was on the pill, which was "supposed to" regulate my periods. I'd have up to four a month, and my iron levels were fine. There was nothing wrong, it was just how my cycle went. Some mess ups with different prescriptions for the BC pill happened and now I am on a pill that keeps me sane (low estrogen) and also regulates my periods for the first time in my life. I'm 27 by the way, so it's been about 14 or 15 years since I first started having a period and it took this long + different drugs to regulate it.

What I'm saying is that periods aren't normal and you shouldn't freak out when you don't get one. As soon as I read that you had sex for the first time only a few months ago, I instantly knew the culprit. As you start having sex more and more, you'll realize the flow of your body as it adjusts to different hormones, sexual "interference" and so forth. Most of the sexual interference is just mental, that you swear up and down you "should" have gotten your period by now omg omg omg i'm pregnant omg.


Don't start hating your body for it...but if you do, would it be the worst thing if you continued to have your period?