relapsed [Self Injury triggers]

[Sar]

[i don't know how coherent this'll be so my apologies]

i relapsed. i was doing so well at not SI-ing [near/maybe 6 months] a week back home and she starts in with her guilt trips and coupled with the heavy dysphoria [the family is admittedly not helping with their "sweetheart" and "miss" and "birthname"] i relasped. the slashes on my stomach and the blood on my shouler atest to that. i gotta come out i have to but i'm scared.

[Ji Tusk]

-safe hugs-

I'm so sorry you are under that kind of stress and pressure, both of stifling invisibility and dysphoria. Is there a youth group around you locally that you can come out to first, who will be a more assuredly supportive environment? If you are unsure or too scared of what your family's reactions may be, then it might be a good place to get on your feet from. I haven't come out to my family, besides my husband, and I'm starting to meet people my age as my preferred name and coming out directly with my gender identity, and it has done wonders for me dealing with home life, where I haven't come out yet.

Or do you have a therapist you can trust? =/

Try to stay strong, and I hope you feel better soon, and comfortable enough to come out.

[Kass-ID]

If there is a therapist you can trust, it might be worth a look. I'm by no means an expert on self injury but it something that can be helped by a knowledgeable professional. If therapy isn't an option for you, I agree with Ji Tusk's suggestion about a youth group or some other real life group where you can express yourself more openly. It's hard to be in a position were you lack control...

[AlexTheSane]

(((Hugs)))

I'm sorry you have to go through all that crap. Just remember that other people's problems are not your fault. Definitelly get yourself a space where you can be yourself, that will help you deal when you're in places where you can't.

[omelu]

*hugs* I'm sorry you're in an environment that causes you so much stress. I once went two years in between and felt awful about messing up that record. If it would help you at all to talk, you can always PM me, I usually check this site frequently.