I had a long conversation with a trans friend of mine, and I may have worked out a few unresolved questions I had... But I'd like to clarify something with those people here.
I know of a few gender models that involve more than one gender (be it both at once, or one at a time)... but I don't know where this might fit in. Seems like maybe bi-gendered, but I don't know if that's technically right.
I feel like there's a possibility that I might be switching between the female side of the binary, and somewhere probably in the middle, or ungendered. This is because there are times when I feel comfortable saying i'm female, and there are times when I feel like I'm not. I still don't know for sure if I really have two genders, or if it's just doubt causing the mixed feelings, but I'm getting closer to finding an answer.
I recently found out that I might not actually want to go all the way over to the other side of the binary, but instead just want to be more androgynous, because I'm comfortable living an outward male life, but feel like I want some female features too. If that's the case then I'm probably just genderqueer.
So many things to think about. Have to go over my saved MSN conversation to see if I can make sense of it all again after I take a nap. I feel some kind of peace right now, but I suspect it'll be only temporary.